Another Day In Paradise

So another day is done and I tried my best to work out, eat healthy and not let stress of the day get to me or guide my eating habits. It was definitely a busy day with my husband being away with my one son for the weekend and me home alone with the othere two. My parents came to visit and I always stress about cleaning the house before they come. So btw worrying about my boys being on a road trip, my parents visiting, and just keeping up with life it was definitley a challenge at times not to grab food to soothe me. It is definitely odd how eating food can make you feel better for that moment. It just sends a sense of calm over me that is until I realize what I did and regret it. I am trying to curb that craving and replace it with something else but when I can't i will try and grab a snack that satisfies my sweet tooth but does not send my calories over the edge.

I really am in touch with when I am eating cause I am hungry and when I am eating because of my emotions. I found myself last night going to the market and grabbing a Entamens(sp) cake, a piece of cake with vanilla icing from the bakery and a pint of icecream which I pick out all the nuts and chocolate pieces and ditch the ice cream. Oh, then I went and got pizza next door for dinner. I got it all home and knew I was grabbing these things because I was alone for the night with everyone away and at sleepovers and I do not like being alone. I did not know how to soothe my lonliness. I ended up eating a slice and a half of the pizza, took two bites of the icing on the cake and just picked out a few nuts from the ice cream. Not too bad for my first bad night in a couple of months. I was glad I was able to minimize the damage but yet still not feel deprived. It was definitely a difficult night for me but today was another day. I got up, exercised and ate as clean as I could so I feel good. I am only human and there will be more days like yesterday.

As long as I stay focused and keep the goal of getting healthy in mind I will be okay. It is not a race it is a long distance run.

Just getting started on my blogging journey

Ok This is my very first blog post and I am excited to start this journey. I think it will be both mentally and physically good for me. Just a lil about me and my journey. I have three children and live in NJ. I have always struggled with my weight and have fought the good fight for a long time but the weight always won. I always focused on the numbers on the scale and let them control me. In August my friend lost her husband. It completely shock me up and made me realize what better time then now to get control of my health so that the next, hopefully 60 years of my life can be fruitful. I just turned 40 and look forward to the next chapter of my life with my husband and children.

In September I weighed myself and have not done so since. I began and exercise program of walking atleast 5 times a week and have kept with that to date. I walk,take kickboxing,go to the gym, do Bollywood, or Leslie Sansones tapes to keep my workouts from getting boring. I have been trying to count my calories and keep it to as close to 1600 calories a day. I planned on taking it slow and focusing on the healthy habits rather then losing weight. I know I have lost since I have gone down two sizes but refuse to weigh myself in fear that the scale will not say what I thin k it should. I do not want to mess with a good thing.

Anyway, I am very excited to start bloging and join the Helathy You Challenge so I can connect with and support others who are striving for the same goals.